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Wednesday, September 29, 2010

exhausted.

有时候我觉得我,
得到了一个很爱自己的男友,
可是却失去了一个很好的倾听者,
一个很好的谈心好友。

我也觉得,
我得到了自由,
可是却失去了轻松的生活。

我得到了在爱人身边的生活,
可是却失去了家人的陪伴。

我得到了成长,
可是失去了天真的童真。

难道,
真的有舍才有得吗?

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

sob.

im gonna be gone from msia for a week, counting down from 2 days,
and baby copper's gonna go back to sabah for good :(

SAD CASE.

im still wondering how am i going to live without him :( :( :(
i had been raising him for 3 years plus like a mother,
and suddenly,
hes off to himself :( :( :(
or maybe with the grandma, SHEESH.

the only decision i made for him to go back is because,
im very afraid that i wouldnt have much time for him anymore if i started working again. it happened previously, he showed me this sad depression face everytime i came home, and while leaving the house, he showed that face to me again.
so it was pretty hard for both of us.

and then, i thought that maybe i could go for a job that involves pet so i could bring him along to work with me, A GROOMER! but then, just by taking up the course itself already cost me a bomb. i couldnt afford it :(

then it came to the last option, sending him back to sabah where theres many of his friends waiting for him. jade, amber, ivory, both of the cats, and most important - his grandma that doesnt need to work, so can stay at home jaga all of them!

SIGH.

im gonna be all alone again :(
baby copper has been the only reason that i wanna go home.
now, i think i'll be wondering around AGAIN.
or probably when dad sells the house,
then i'll have to move to a new place where it only fits both me n bolvin.
HMPF.
well, previously we had that option,
a friend of dad is selling away her apartment somewhere around subang,
its quite near to subang parade and also empire shopping centre,
i like the unit itself, but not the environment of the apartment.
maybe its still very new and theres no crowd around,
too silent and it makes me feel creepy,
especially with msia's security, u know, robbery rape crime cases all around.

AHHHH. lots of probs when u come to reality, and thats what i hate about.
guess im the one who'll be in depression after coming back from china!
desperate for my baby copper! D:
SAVEEEE MEEEE!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

mmmm.

am back to square one.
missed baby a lot while i was away,
and yes, i got a whole lot of scratches on my thigh after he sees me right after i opened my grill door. well, its EXPECTED already.

had a tiring trip,
didnt have any time for me to rest really well though LOL,
but was very happy.
get to meet with old friends and besties,
get to eat what i've been missing for so long!

SANG NYUK MIAN!
LITTLE ITALY!
YOYO!!

omg damn guilty after eating those food,
i think i gained a KG after eating all these lmao.
but i didnt eat some of it,
my DUMPLINGS! yu fu mian! damai butterkaya breaddddd..
:( not enough time :(

went up to kundasang with my aunt and her friends from indonesia,
had lots of fun.
i think u guys need to wait for me to upload the photos LOL as i do not have any photoshop software in my computer YET :(
shit. i really need my photoshop! D:

KEEEEEELLLL MEEEEE!!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

before leaving.

will be on tomorrow's 9pm plane heading back to KK,
today will be quite a day since i have to renew my license, buy the dog food, pack my bag, go to klang and pick up the mooncakes that dad wanted which hubby dear's mom got for me, and the list goes on.

and i think i fell in love with mcd's new cheesy shake fries!
it taste so good okay?
before they had MCB (Mc Chicken Burger, dont misunderstand me!), then they have GCB (Grilled Chicken Burger), now they have DCB and TCB!
it's actually double cheese burger and triple cheese burger.
oh well, from the photos it looks damn big k, like big mac size.
but then in real, we might not know larh!
wait till i go try it out first LOL.


this is a piece of manip before i formatted my computer from VISTA to windows 7.
(yes, i'm using windows 7 now, better than vista k?)

click for original submission.



very emotional piece i should say, VERY.
and this piece was done very quickly.
inspirations BANG on my head real HARD,
and therefore,
TA-DA!! :))

i was quite happy with it though,
please tell me u do so too :))

gotta miss hubby dear and copper baby.
and did i update on, copper's heading back to sabah for good at the end of this month?
my mom said she wants to take care of him,
and thinking about striving hard in career in the future (coming real soon),
i thought i might not have much time to accompany baby dear,
so might as well let him go back and he can hang out with jadey and ivory girl.
:((

sad to have my baby leaving my side,
im gonna be LONELY! D:

Friday, September 10, 2010

works works and works.

i think i spent a lot of time in this piece of work,
approx. more than 6 hours?
which is more than average ones.



click for original submission.

raya is here!
finally!
means more malay food for me,
mmmmmmmmmmm, om nom nom nom.
how i miss my aunt's most favorable dish, curry beef :(
i wish i could go back to dad's kampung and have that.

well, will be going back to kk next week,
attending my most beloved cousie/bestie's wedding.
finally she's getting married,
we've been partners in crime since kids!
i cant believe now she's attached and leaving me alone :(
ahhh how im going to miss her D:

but i guess there'll be loads of photos soon too ;)
stay tune.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

insomnia.

slept early last night,
but then woke up freakingly early too - -"
damn.

i miss hubby dear :(
he banned me from doing photomanipulations last night D:
because i was having headache and tired,
and i normally have inspirations only at late midnight!
therefore, sleeping at 5am is QUITE normal for me :x


click for original submission.

this is a manip done 2 days ago.
comments and critiques?


BY THE WAY,
hubby dear did boiled soup for me :))
mmmm, it was nice for a first timer,
though it wasnt perfect,
but i love it :3

ASKING FOR MORE please?

that is why,
how can i not love this naughty lil' hubby of mine?

Friday, September 03, 2010

untitled.

在听着音乐静静思考的时刻,
偶尔都会想起以前的一点一滴。
虽然人不该总是往回头看,
但我都觉得回忆总会让人在毫无表情的脸上做个小小的改变。

我是个不爱喝咖啡的人,
因为我讨厌它总在嘴和喉咙里残留的一种味道。
人说,咖啡好喝,是因为它的芳香,它苦涩后的甘甜,
可我只爱闻到咖啡香味,却不爱喝咖啡。
清晨醒来闻到咖啡的香味,烘面包的焦味,
对我来说都是再也平凡不过的幸福小事。

我从来都很响往,
一个人能够拥有一间小房子,
自个儿住的小房子,
可以在露台上种满可爱的小花,
而露台就在厨房的窗口外,
阳光普照进来的时候带来了温暖。
养着最爱的小狗小猫,
做着自己最爱的蛋糕和小食,
在一个温暖的小房子里享受这一切。
播着最爱听的抒情小曲,
坐着最爱的秋千,如果有凉风吹一吹进来,
这是何等的享受。

这样的梦想从来都没有改变过,
由小学开始就觉得,
如果自己有一天能够在郊外有这样的房子,
那应该多好。
可以还属于我的宁静,属于我的时间。

可是年纪逐渐大了,
要考虑的事情也多,总不能只为自己着想,
明白到原来责任就是那么一回事,
身边有了要顾虑的人,心里有了着紧的人,
所以一切都在改变。

人偶而会从自己朝着的方向跑出轨外,
这几个月来,我也不是未曾想过自己的未来与梦想。
知道有些事情无法再去后悔些什么,
只能跟着自己从新犏策的梦想从新出发,
而且,已经不再是我一个人的事了。
10月后回来要做的事可多了,
好多事情也必须改变,希望这次不会再跑出轨外。


难道你不觉得这样的日子,
很舒服吗?



the urge is coming.

i always have this habit that,
when inspirations and urge comes together,
i couldnt just stop doing it.
therefore,
another piece after 12hours of sleep,
4 hours spent on this piece.



like it? or not?
do let me know ;)

Thursday, September 02, 2010

fall.

new work!
im so happy with my efficiency now :))
a piece of manip within few days,
ahhh how i hope this is going to last forever!



comments and critiques everyone :))

might be going down to KL with hubby dear this weekend,
its really been a while since we're both going down KL for shopping!
though his main purpose is to accompany people only :/

nevertheless im still happy ;P
weeee~ shopping time! :3

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

hubby's bday!

hubby's birthday is special.
falls on every year's malaysia independence day.
mmmmmmmmm, lucky or the other way round? xD

bought two cakes for him to celebrate with his family.
mogu introduced me RT Pastry which is famous for its Tiramisu and Strawberry cake,
went over to the pastry shop so early,
YET its filled with so many people already,
CRAZY!

but finally got my hands on both cakes,
im not sure whether i got the right strawberry cake because there wasnt any "strawberry cake" names around, or maybe they've sold out? so i got "strawberry garden" instead.

and!
hubby dear gave me surprise,
making me so disappointed when he said he wasnt sure that he's going to be back that night WHILE im already half way heading to his home :/
HMPF,
bad boy.

but still,
he did surprised me!
SO NAUGHTYYYYYYYYY!


cut his cake after 12, with his family too :))
are u happy, birthday boy?

birthday boy wishing hard!
*hmpf, i wonder what did he wished for?

his cutting skills are greatly doubted, for sure.

u see larh, dont know what he cut, some more pull out all the candles make me take so ugly punya photo RAWR! banyak lubang!

strawberry garden cake still looks fine because all lubang covered by the strawberries d :x


after that,
must camwhore with my only love!
:3

mengade look! see the sequence? so funny kayyyy :x
especially when hubby dear covered up his TITS!
so scare people look at his tits weyyyyy :x

ended that night with lots of kisses from hubby dear.
mmmmmmmmmm, i love that alot :))

hope u love what i've prepared for u, love.
and although u're a year older,
but that doesnt mean i love u lesser,
it actually goes the other way round ;)
LOVE U MORE THAN EVER.